Sunday, March 15, 2009

Disaster In new york!

So I arrived in nYc about 2:30 am, Waited in line for about 15 horrible hours of pushing and yelling threats being thrown about. Im about 75 people out of  8,000 away from the door. I was almost there! I almost was at least able to show my face... To show that I wasn't some girl from the hood. I am a Model! Face Tats and all! 

All of a sudden i hear screams coming from the end of the street, Panic and screams and smoke fills the air! I then felt an overwhelming force of hundreds of people push against me.
My suitcase gone. Shoes gone. All i could see was the concrete and felt feet trampling all over my back. No one helped me! Then this life saving girl Started to scream that I was under the mass getting crushed, And some officer managed to pull me to the surface. My back is in tremendous pain. My head is in pain, as soon as i finally got pulled out I was so out of breath that I Blacked out right in new york city! The paramedic told me to go to the hospital. Of course i refused. 

I was in a fucking corcet! It sucked! I didn't even get to show them! I didn't get my chance!!...
What now? Just be some alt model that is infamous for the same shit every other "alt" model is known for. 

This really has effected me hardcore. 

When will i see the light. Maybe im not supposed to be in the lime light.
Just alt sites on the internet. 

Internet fame is prob my only chance at this game. Great. 

sometime i hate my stars on my face. they really restrict me.




  1. despite the pain and terrible events you've been through only make the moment you're striving for that much better once you finally achieve it. Its through perseverance that people when beaten down and told they can't do it, or can't make it, continue on to be what they're destined to be. Remember who you are and continue to strive to live your dreams, they're waiting for you.

  2. Is there really anything wrong with being an alt model? And despite the fact that there are so many alt models (are there any less non-alt models) I'm more than just a little sure that you are not only fairly popular but also quite a motivation to other girls who strive for the success you have achieved. Chin up chicky! :-)

  3. First off, I am really glad you are OK & weren't seriously hurt, even though what you went through really sucks. Second, you are truly beautiful & you transcend the whole alt-porn genre. You are just amazing! Lastly, you should email the Tyra Banks show & tell them what happened. They may be interested in interviewing you or having you on the show, so you can turn a big negative into a big positive!

  4. aw that sucks :( sometimes things have to be worse before they get better. i'm not sure that dog and pony show of a show and tyrannical tyra would have done much for you anyway i've heard a lot of horror stories... you're amazing keep your chin up and keep trying new and cool things until you make a mark.

    the other jager twin

  5. I read about the chaos on Yahoo and immediately thought of you. I'm so sorry, hon. That is awful to be so close and have such a terrible thing happen!

  6. Oh my god!! That is horrible!! Why was everyone running? What happened? I am soooo sorry you missed out! Surely there will be another casting! You should try and go to another city for it!