Ugh confused.

So second thoughts on traveling to california. I think i'm to scared. Im scared to maybe lose the things i have here if i go. hmmm what to do? what to do? I don't want to disappoint anyone, I just want to do what's best for me and my energy to grow. I need my brain to not be torn in two parts. I have to think clearly. heh. deep.

haha im such a goth. 

but yea that what's basically going down. Me freaking out about things hahaha. Spaz i am.

A.