Ugh confused.

So second thoughts on traveling to california. I think i'm to scared. Im scared to maybe lose the things i have here if i go. hmmm what to do? what to do? I don't want to disappoint anyone, I just want to do what's best for me and my energy to grow. I need my brain to not be torn in two parts. I have to think clearly. heh. deep.

haha im such a goth. 

but yea that what's basically going down. Me freaking out about things hahaha. Spaz i am.

A.

A BreaK In

So Yesterday I find out my house has been robbed.  Usually i would not post something so personal, but this particular event is weird. I feel like signs all point to leave my area. I was robbed, but for some reason i had all my important things on me. It actually didn't effect me at all. But it did scare me. Not in a omg what if he returns way, but in a omg what if i really am stuck in this type of neighborhood forever! I mean of course right away i wanted to move out! But now it's more of a location thing i think. I know I have to leave this crazy place. 

o-0

Asphyxia's first blogger blog hahaha

So tired! 

I recently just got back home from San Francisco. It was sooo fun!!

I think that it's the best city in the world! In the world! I would move there if i wasn't such a scared ass. hahaha 

I was sick.

but even tho I still went and saw the city :)

It was so akward being in a new place.

I want to go back soooo bad. I wish life events made it so i was able to. But alas I can have 

My cake and eat it to huh?